June 30th, 2010
|04:41 am - For Everyone at Racebending.com -- Please Read|
I feel like there is huge amounts of disinformation out there about me and reading many of these comments from people who are my comrades and (who I thought were) my friends just makes me want to puke. I fee like I have a knife in my back.
First on that Twitter post, it is gone. I apologize for writing something that poorly written and thought out but I was overwhelmed just like you all were for the negative press that is coming out over the movie both in terms of racebending and as a film in of itself.
From a person who got death threats, had his computer hacked and to see his friends get bullied over this issue since the near beginning, I was full of emotion and typed with my gut instead of my brain. This will not happen again and I will be more careful about tweeting to make the organization look good.
Secondly, even though my friends at Racebending.com had posted that I stepped down from my position at my own free will there seems to be this view that somehow I was "fired" from the staff. I thought later on (I was going to write a book about this whole Racebending thing and sell it for charity) after the film came out I would tell the "True E! Hollywood Story" about why I stepped down but it seems like I am going to have to explain myself earlier so here it is...
As everyone remembers, one of my main jobs was to upload and maintain the YouTube page. Once and awhile, a troll would hack the page and start spamming flames at everyone connected to us. I would have to go in, delete such nonsense and apologize to such people. Well, one time when this happened the Dragonball Evolution Protest group was one of the victims of this. Turns out the guy running the YouTube is different from the other mods in that group and he has hated Racebending.com since they pledged allegiance to support us. I tried to be civil about it, I tried to remain calm and inform him of the issues but he wanted to hear no end of it.
So a short time later, he convinced the rest of the DBE movement to follow him and troll Racebending.com social portals. The huge thing they did was to mass spam the "REPORT" function on Facebook and that is how our Facebook was deleted. We were all upset and horrified about it and I had to make a choice. Talking to the YouTube DBE guy, I knew that he really hated me and saw me as the movement. And as I told the others, I rather see the Racebending movement to succeed with or without me taking and active roll in it. So I figured that if I resigned my staff position, the trolls will attack me instead of Racebending. Even though some people said I should not step down, I did so anyway to get rid of the DBE trolls. And it worked. They have been trolling (and failing at it) me ever since and it took them away from Racebending.com
Not only now do I have time to do other things, but I have STILL been doing things for Racebending.com behind the scenes with approval of the current staff. There! That's the story. Everyone makes it sound like I was some rat who was fired and now they get to celebrate urinating all over me for all the work I did because they never heard the full story.
Again, I am still very sorry for any person I have made uncomfortable or angry over my time and I wish your flames at me were heard when I was in person and not when you figured I left the movement forever so you can bitch about me free-for-all all you want. It breaks my heart to think this is how I get treated, mocked and dissed behind my back like this and I am deeply hurt by this.
Again, I was not a saint when running the group. I know that. Note how I was fine in the beginning but towards the end things started to go fubar. Basically, all the stress and death threats, trolls, hacks and slander at me took it's toll and so I got worse and worse over time. It was one of the other reasons I stepped down, being one of the main faces of Racebending is not easy and I thank Mike, Darine, Loraine and the rest for keeping their cool. Trust me, we constantly were freaking out and being a hairs way of exploding and so I am sorry that I was one of the first for this to start getting to me.
Lastly, I want to clear up something that neurotic_rat said which as a strong feminist really broke my heart. It was a misunderstanding of a quote I made a long time ago. I obviously did NOT sign up for this group to "get laid". Hell if you read my old posts (such as the barbification of Katara), I am a huge Womens Rights activist and it's one of the many reasons I love the show Avatar: The Last Airbender. What I said (or was trying to say and maybe came out the wrong way) is that in my past experiences with protesting those said protest were very much male dominated. So I was uplifted, impressed and ecstatic that a huge protest group was manned by smart, intelligent, funny and beautiful women and could do it better and more professionalism than any protesting group I have ever worked with.
You all should be really proud for that and go women! Girl power! THAT is what I said. It makes me sick to see that because of a misconception of that quote that now I am seen as some sort of unclean pervert who was trying to act like a pimp. Ugh!
Again, I am sorry for the Twitter quote. I got over excited and jumped the gun again. Keep up the great fight, lets show that white washing a series as fantastic as this is very uncool and I hope you are now informed about what was really going on all those months ago.
Current Mood: crushed
|From:|| nemogbr |
|Date:||June 30th, 2010 09:13 am (UTC)|| |
Thanks for this post. I did wonder about you stepping down and how the Dragonball Protesters (the one who shaved his beard) became quite vociferous in their attacks on the racebending channel and racebending.com.
I didn't realise you started getting death threats.
I have also been involved in various human rights organisations and in one facebook group received some messages about my reasonings for helping women's rights when I am male.
These were messages from a female lawyer in Turkey.
Keep up the good work and don't let detractors, get you down.
|Date:||June 30th, 2010 01:23 pm (UTC)|| |
to: Dragonball SCREWBALLS
I hope you eventually find some positive reason for living. The amount of time and energy you devote to being negative could/should be used for more positive efforts in today's world, such as Racebending. I pity you and your decisions to be ignorant by choice and self-contained in a vibrant world.
|From:|| puffysanjo |
|Date:||July 9th, 2010 07:40 am (UTC)|| |
Re: to: Dragonball SCREWBALLS
What the fuck are you talking about?
|From:|| lurial |
|Date:||June 30th, 2010 01:49 pm (UTC)|| |
Jesus christ - you got DEATH THREATS and your computer was HACKED? What the hell is wrong with people?
I'm sorry to hear that you went through so much - if it makes you feel better at all, you were a very memorable name in my mind when it came to the racebending movement and I never really thought ill of you. (Or knew about any of this DBZ Protest craziness.)
I always thought you stepped down because the stress was getting to you and you wanted to step back from it for a little while as opposed to being 'fired'.
We all did. That is why I think any book or film done about this movement would be one very interesting story. ;D
I'm just sad that I seem to have left with a sort of bad blood, which was not my intent when leaving. I really did tweet those things because I thought after leaving people would not care or forgot I existed. I was wrong. -,-;
|Date:||June 30th, 2010 07:11 pm (UTC)|| |
People will always make mistakes and there will always be someone to pick you apart for them but it's not about the mistakes you make, it's about what you do about them. The negative opinions of people who don't even know you will never matter. The only reason these people jumped on you is because their lives are so boring that they actually feel great about themselves for attacking random people. It goes to show how pathetic some people really are. The fact that you decide to address it like a grown man shows how above these people you really are. Everything comes to pass and these people will eventually move to another unsuspecting victim. You're a great guy Jordan like you've always been.
Well that certainly explains the sudden influx of people from the DBE protest who claimed we were saying things that, no, we really were not. Seriously, are hackers that hard to believe?
I just. Don't understand why you were never allowed to tell your side of the story anywhere where the majority of the others could hear.
I hate that I'm part of the silent minority of people who actually appreciated you and your posts to the comm. Yeah, we all have dumb moments. I'd like to think that seeing as you were a member of the main site's staff that you'd be open to change, even if it had to take place out of the main team. Such a shame there's so much bad blood between the racebending community and you. :(
It's not that I was not allowed. I chose to not say the reason because if I did, the DBE gang would have been wise to my act and they would have continued to attack Racebending anyhow.
It was all my choice. And I am so happy, because it's in such amazing capable hands and fans that I love it. Racebending is only possible with you guys, I only did a small part. Though I enjoyed that part.
Now I get to sit back and watch M. Night and his racist film burn. =D
Heh, like they've stopped as it is. I still get the occasional "RACEBENDING SUX" video in my subscription list from them. Sometimes I wonder why I'm still subscribed to that channel. ~_~
Heh, if what you did was small, my part must be microscopic. XD Though, can't deny that I've gotten a fair few positive reactions on two high traffic forums for my anti-racebending signature graphic, so there is that. :B
AMEN TO THAT! Yay Schadenfreude! <3 /popcorn.gif forever